A wake-up call to myself

Some of us tend to look forward to the future so much that we forget to seize the present. We pray for tomorrow to be better because we don’t feel content on what we have, who we’re with, and where we are right now. We picture ourselves years ahead with much optimism that our lives will be way better than today. We, in fact spend our days investing on experience and wisdom to prepare for the future. However, have you thought of the days you took for granted just because you were so focused with tomorrow? Do you remember what you were doing same day last month? When was the last time you had fun on an ordinary day? Did you even notice we are almost halfway 2013?!

I don’t know if it’s about technology or is it only this stage in my life but lately, I feel like days are going by so fast. Unfortunately,  I only remember very few moments or special occasions. The rest of the days were so ordinary I can’t even tell you when was when. Worse, I recently stumbled into the realization that I already consumed (almost) half of my life! I am already freakin’ 25!!! One day I was just a high school student eager to fast forward the days so I can finally finish a degree and earn my own money! And now here I am–10 years after– thinking where have all the years gone! Woah! That’s how time flies!

In all fairness, just as how my teenage self envisioned my future, I actually finished my degree and for almost three years have been working here abroad. Sounds like everything went according to plan right?

Well let me tell you the truth…

Yes I have achieved my goals I set 10 years ago. Also, I’m really blessed because at this stage in my life I have the means to do/ have whatever I want. Whenever I see my friends/ relatives struggling to find jobs and lovelife, narerealize ko how blessed I am because I have everything in my hand right now.

Pero bakit parang may kulang parin? Baki hindi ako kasing happy as how I anticipated when I was only dreaming about today?

If I had the chance, I would have told my 15-year old self: “Please enjoy your youth. Do not rush to the future because whether you like it or not, it will come. So for now, don’t pressure yourself. Dream big, create your goals but live every day one at a time and make the most out of each so when you look back 10 years from now, you will have that awesome feeling of contentment and won’t have any regrets. And PS, you are now at the most exciting stage of your life so have fun, feel the kilig, and savor having awesome friends around! Believe me, mas masaya ang teenage years kesa boring na professional life” hehe

Perhaps I can also give the above advice to my present self. Palitan ko lang ng konti: “Please enjoy the rest of your youth. Do not rush to the future because whether you like it or not, it will come. So for now, don’t pressure yourself. Taste the sweetness of success Dream big, create more your goals but live every day one at a time and make the most out of each so when you look back 10 years from now, you will have that awesome feeling of contentment and won’t have any regrets. And PS, you are now at the peak most exciting stage of your life so have fun, stay inlove feel the kilig, and nourish your career savor having awesome friends around! Believe me, mas masaya ang maging young professional teenage years kesa boring na middle-aged woman professional life” hehe

I am writing about this to remind myself that I need to forget all my worries. I need to stop focusing so much in the future that I don’t get to appreciate what today brings me anymore. Like a zombie, I wake up and sleep (do zombies sleep?) and that’s it. Sometimes I feel guilty praying to God and thanking him for blessing me another day pero hindi ko naman namamaximize. Sayang lang. Now thinking of it, I feel so wicked because there are people out there who will do anything to live one day more but they don’t get that opportunity anymore.

10 years from now, I want to look back and have that sense of fulfillment that I lived a meaningful and happy life. Hopefully this post has enlightened me enough. Hehe.

Bitter reality: “We religiously dream of something but as soon as we get hold of it, we wish for some more (or something else). That’s why we’re never satisfied. We’re never happy.”

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